One mistake after another
Posted: Mon Sep 12, 2011 7:05 pm
These last few weeks have been unusual to say the least. I feel like I've gone through so many changes, that I might be morphing into a completely different person. The introduction of knowledge in the world, and seemless integration into the human mind gives an opportunity to understand many things that may have been less than understandable before. Strangers to this land, coming with a purpose, the thought of having something greater than what many people spend their lives chasing. Duty. Unusual isn't it. Something that many people crave, through different conquests, undeniably growing impatient when faced with the answer of time. The worst answer that is felt in our hearts, is that time will bring about change. For better or worse, it may be the deterioration of certain things in a persons life, but worse eventually arrives and no amount of preparation can get someone ready for what they seem to be facing in the not so distant future.
Through this jabber, and jiber, these random thoughts, there might actually be a prevailing purpose. My nature is not that of a loner, but the transition into a new city, has left me with even fewer associates, and people in my recent calls list. Oh how that list was ever changing, and like the rest of my life has begun to stagnate.
The Fourth week of law school begins tomorrow, well today seeing as how its close to 2AM. A little recap for myself, someone who may be forgetting what it was like three weeks ago. a not so young starry eyed individual, who told himself and others "This time it'll be different. The thoughts that raced in my head when I took that year off, the inner desire that I thought was there to learn and grow intellectually seems to have died. I knew it at the finish of the first week, that I wasn't ready for this. i tell myself things are going to change...but have they? Other than being transplanted into an unknown area, and personally undesirable there isn't much that seems to have changed. Delaying the inevitable seems much more exciting, like the anticipation of a flower blooming in the spring time. We plant seeds in the fall, and give nothing and even yet still the flower seems to bloom. Time, a deeper possible understanding of plant life, but nothing more.
Seems like if Law school was a plant I'd be pretty excited, well more than I am now. More random thoughts to come when they may. internet at my house got disconnected.
Through this jabber, and jiber, these random thoughts, there might actually be a prevailing purpose. My nature is not that of a loner, but the transition into a new city, has left me with even fewer associates, and people in my recent calls list. Oh how that list was ever changing, and like the rest of my life has begun to stagnate.
The Fourth week of law school begins tomorrow, well today seeing as how its close to 2AM. A little recap for myself, someone who may be forgetting what it was like three weeks ago. a not so young starry eyed individual, who told himself and others "This time it'll be different. The thoughts that raced in my head when I took that year off, the inner desire that I thought was there to learn and grow intellectually seems to have died. I knew it at the finish of the first week, that I wasn't ready for this. i tell myself things are going to change...but have they? Other than being transplanted into an unknown area, and personally undesirable there isn't much that seems to have changed. Delaying the inevitable seems much more exciting, like the anticipation of a flower blooming in the spring time. We plant seeds in the fall, and give nothing and even yet still the flower seems to bloom. Time, a deeper possible understanding of plant life, but nothing more.
Seems like if Law school was a plant I'd be pretty excited, well more than I am now. More random thoughts to come when they may. internet at my house got disconnected.