what matters is how my best measures up to everyone else's attempt in my class.
That's where I got that from.
That's just an expression of things based on a curve. I did my part. Now it's going to be measured up against how everyone else did. What grade I get is now entirely out of my control at this point. That's all I was saying. I can't worry about it because it really has nothing to do with me now.
Second, you must understand that at a certain point you can't work yourself up over other people. The best you can do is put yourself in a position to execute on game day, and there are so many variables in there that at some point it is not worth working harder. I've taken exams where the difference between an A and a B- was 6 points. Given holistic grading, I'm not sure what could be done, if anything, to assure yourself of a better spot on the curve.
That's one hell of a tight curve, and that sucks. But I think in that case, I'd still want to look at what those six points were and why I might have missed them, in the hope that I'll be able to learn something from the experience. Maybe I wouldn't be able to, but I'd rather try than just accept it was a tight curve and there was nothing I could do.
That's not me taking things personally, it's just me wanting to learn what I can. I'm just wired that way.